The Easter Story

Today is Easter.  We are all given this story of an innocent man who was unjustly tortured and murdered by the civilization.  He, then, miraculously rises from the dead three days later.  That's the story THEY gave us.

The story that I have lived is being tortured and murdered by the civilization, resurrecting one's self to re-emerge into the civilization.  But that's not the end of the story that I have experienced and witnessed in others.  It gets repeated OVER and OVER and OVER  again.   Repeatedly being tortured, murdered and having to piece one's self together again to enter the civilization, only to repeat the same scenario.  

I am rethinking my model of autism.  Perhaps it is those young spirits refusing to enter into the so-called social contract of this place.  They refuse to engage with this place and reject what it requires. They withdraw into themselves.

I have learned that my only successful way to minimize pain and suffering is to isolate and quarantine myself from the civilization. 

I died my first death of many, at age 12.  I try to connect with that young man to offer care, understanding and sympathy.  We are thrust into this place.  We struggle to understand who we are, what is this family I am with, what are all these behaviours that are required of me.   Performing in school, performing in church, performing for relatives, learning what causes pleasure and what causes pain.  

Then our bodies are hijacked by a hormone storm. Another struggle ensues to understand these physical and emotional changes and desires.  We are told to act on some desires, while not act on others.  What are the social norms that must be obeyed.  

This physical desire is then channeled into coercion to fall into the TRAP of marriage.  For  the vast majority, this causes immense pain and suffering.  For many, it is the greatest pain and suffering of their entire life. 

https://dirtybennywrites.blogspot.com/2023/11/the-deception-of-sex-illusion-of-love.html

https://dirtybennywrites.blogspot.com/2024/03/lets-talk-about-love-trap-decode-your.html

At some point, those on this path will discover the deception, lies, and illusion of this place in which we exist.  This usually leads to more pain and suffering with further conflict, ridicule, and subsequent isolation.  The vast majority conform and just believe.

Was "doubting" Thomas the first autohoaxer?

A doubting Thomas is a skeptic who refuses to believe without direct personal experience – a reference to the Gospel of John's depiction of the Apostle Thomas, who, in John's account, refused to believe the resurrected Jesus had appeared to the ten other apostles until he could see and feel Jesus's crucifixion wounds.