DIRTYBENNY WRITES

 

 I met Toots in Providence at Lupo's many years ago.  He was very gracious...offering me his ganja....and signing my autographs.. Very authentic and intense music personality.  I remain a big fan of Daryl Hall and recall my personal encounter with him. https://dirtybennywrites.blogspot.com/2026/01/2-of-my-faves-from-my-past-life-nick.html

There is something about astrology and personality types that is telling. So many of the people in this facet of the internet are Geminis. Off the top of my head... Ab Frank the Salt Guy Velocet Casimir Napoleon Wilson Jeff Not Shocked Farcevalue, if my memory serves me correctly.  Perhaps there are more that I am missing.  I do think that our personality types are coded into our incarnation based on the position of the stars. We are all given a personality template. All is part of the design of the simulation.  Reflecting on my life, I remember spending every Friday evening with my grandparents after work as a teenager and in college...wanting to hear their stories of what they experienced in their life.  I had no interest in alcohol or girls...I wanted to know who I am and where I came from.   My paternal grandfather was put into an orphanage as a child after his father was killed in the coal mines and his wife died from a broken heart afterwards.  M...

 

Today is my parent's wedding anniversary. They are gone...erased from this place. Aside from my witness, there is no history or record of their existence.  All of their years of toil, trauma, and work that I witnessed have been erased from this place.   They are nothing...they have been erased and forgotten. My hope is that they are in a better place without suffering....as they did here.  I am not optimistic to that end.

I so wanted to be an outsider from the system.  Grunge was waiting there for me. Soundgarden and Nirvana were my faves.I remember snooping out their early CDs at the shop next to CBGB on the lower east side.  I was so angry and frustrated with the reality.   I have very little recollection of this concert.  Looking back, it really seems like this music is channelled and their bodies are just antennae to put the music out to the crowd.  The intensity of the movements are almost inhuman.  Later in his post Soundgarden career, I saw and met Chris Cornell in Providence.   He barely moved on stage....

 

I rarely leave my compound and go out as little as possible.  A friend who does my tree planting and nursery work was here 2 years ago with his 9 year old grandson.  He was talkative, joking, inquisitive, and engaged.  He showed me a written journal that he was keeping.   He wanted to walk around the property and have me tell him the names of each of the trees.  At one point, he asked me if I believed in god. I was struck by the personality and curiosity of this young man.  He visited here last week with his family.  He didn't say 10 words to me or his grandfather.  He just sat on the steps and played on his phone.  His grandfather and I walked around and planned where the new fruit trees should be planted.  He just sat on the steps staring into the black mirror, a casualty of the technology.